This past weekend I talked to a close friend of mines and he made me realize something. Everyone grows differently and in a different pace. Everyone’s still learning something new about themselves and everyone has to deal with obstacles whether how easy or tough it is.
I’m at that stage where I’m still thinking what I want to do with my life, but first, it’s about accepting who YOU are and how you can deal with the world around you later. I guess what I’m trying to say is that for me, I’ve struggled with a lot of things and it’s hard..it’s really hard, but I know I can get through this.
I’m one of those people who get self-conscious and care about what poeple think of me. I know I shouldn’t and that’s exactly what my friend told me to stop doing because at the end of the day, you are who are and there’s nothing you can do to change that.
I’m getting closer to being comfortable with myself, but my only fear is the world around me. I know, I know, I’m doing it again, I’m being self-conscious when I shouldn’t be. But when I’m ready, I know the world will be too and I’ll be ready for anything that comes at me whether it’s good or bad.
I am me and nobody can change me.
i just want to be able to have a conversation with someone every day possibly with the same interests; possibly with a cute smile; possibly someone that can make me wake up in the morning feeling great; just possibly.
am i really that easy to be forgotten and unnoticed?
As things are starting to get clearer to me, I realize what was making my vision blurry and it’s time to open my eyes and look at the next chapter for me.
I don’t know if I want to do this anymore.
everything’s hitting me again and it just makes me realize how i’m not good enough for anything :/
i’m not the drama, you are.
>i am proud of who i am and no one can change that.
last saturday was great…interesting, amazing in a way. i had a great time with the lil bro @markmejia and glad i was able to spend time with him because it’s been awhile! it’s so funny how we’re so alike! we’re totally bro and sis haha x] <3
not gonna lie tho, it was scary at first, but then the community environment got comfortable with interesting, funny, and kind people :’)
ever since that night, i’m starting to feel more and more comfortable with myself and i hope to maybe even visit that kind of community again sometime :’)
it’s funny how you kinda meant a lot to me in the past, and today i realized that it all changed. i saw you at school yesterday and there wasn’t even a “hello,” but our usually joke around and that only lasted 10 secs. and then we both just walked away, to our reality.
gonna focus more on what’s in my heart.
i’m looking around thinking, “what i am doing? what am i doing here?”
always the odd one out.
don’t replace gay with stupid. because then you’re stupid. like really? c’mon, especially when you know about me…you really have no consideration in you, huh?